Finding my.....passion?

Its the catch phrase offered up by every life coach and O magazine cover..... find your passion! Follow your passion. I admit, I have been sucked in more than once. It sounds so exciting and so pleasant. What could be better than a career, a part-time job, a hobby or life centered around what you are most passionate about. Delicious as it seems at first, it is one of those concepts that sours quickly in your mouth. My biggest problem, I am not really sure what mine is. I like to think that I am in tune with myself, so why does posing this question make my stomach a little queasy. Can I choose only one? Am really passionate about anything. Soon I find my self in the clutches of despair and self-doubt. That nasty little bad jill on my shoulder ever so sweetly whispers "you are not really good at anything"...."You will never find your passion." Just when my world starts to spin out, a little girl missing two front teeth comes prancing in the room asking me to do a project with her. Then I get a phone call from my sister and laugh so hard I wet my pants a little. Later I make the best Thai basil curry anyone has ever tasted. Before I fall asleep I read a few pages of one of my favorite poetry books ever, words so beautiful I cry every time. The next morning my shiny new magazine with alluring catch phrase goes straight into the garbage can along with several self-help books. This is my honest and somewhat painful conclusion, passionate is not a word that fits anywhere in my life. I am okay with that though, I have a few loves, plenty of laughs, lots of happy. From now on my plan is to catch myself in the act of being happy, and then keep on doing that.